I am currently sat outside my local hospital which I haven’t been back to since having my first baby 10 years ago. I am filled with so many emotions my head is all over the place.
I have just had my 12 week pregnancy scan and can officially say that baby number 5 is on the way!!!
I have never before been nervous about a 12 week pregnancy scan but this time I was – a complete nervous wreck to be honest. As I sat in the waiting room hardly able to breathe through my mask, I was completely petrified that I wouldn’t see that little flickering heartbeat. I haven’t had many symptoms this time round; which as a previous HG mumma has been a blessing, but it has also filled me with anxiety that all is not well.
As I laid on the bed my chest was tight and my eyes were filling with tears bracing myself for bad news. I am generally a really positive person especially surrounding pregnancy and birth, but something just didn’t feel right this time round & I haven’t been able to put my finger on what or why.
However I did see the heartbeat and as part of the combined screen test that I opted in for, the babies nuceal measurement also came back in the normal range. After the scan I had my blood test (also part of the combined screening) however I won’t get those results back for another week or two. I believe that the majority of my readers are already mothers, however if you have stumbled across this blog and are early in your pregnancy journey or would like to know more about the combined screening head over to the NHS website for further reading https://www.nhs.uk/pregnancy/your-pregnancy-care/screening-for-downs-edwards-pataus-syndrome/
I feel so overwhelmed with emotions right now I don’t even know what to think. So far apart from my husband the only other people that know I’m pregnant are our friends who we were on holiday with last week. I am excited about telling my children, but do feel a little nervous about everyone else. People can be quite negative when it comes to larger families, and I don’t want to invite those negative comments into something that is so pure and positive.
I had honestly convinced myself that today would bring heartbreak, I haven’t let myself think too far ahead, but now I need to put that worry aside and celebrate the fact that I’ve almost done the first trimester without any sickness or complications. As I sit now outside the hospital and wait for my husband to pick me up, for the first time in almost 12 weeks I feel excited – really excited! I can’t actually believe I’m having another baby; I can’t wait to meet you little one.
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